Wow! For the first time in
two full weeks I woke with no pointless anxiety. And I believe I have figured
out what triggered it. This is probably going to sound strange, but here we go.
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| My Ongoing Effort to Find Calm |
Let me explain. Thinking of a
plot twist, or how a new character fits in the storyline, I almost skip to my
laptop sometimes, raising my heart rate with a mild adrenaline rush.
I am certain that what has
been termed the ‘lizard’ brain confused my raised heartbeat and perhaps pure
intellectual stimulation with a reason to flee. Does that make sense?
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| My Brain in Plushie Form |
On a nice side note, I
confessed this idea to my SO. Half expecting a scoff, I instead heard, “Oh, no!
Writing is the greatest joy in your life!” How’s that for sweet compensation? Meanwhile,
I’m gearing up to write today and reminding myself to take deep, slow breaths.
What do you think of my hypothesis?
I've raised my heart rate writing before, lol. That's when I know I'm getting it right :)
ReplyDeleteAwesome! ~hugs~ Be well, my dear.
DeleteAnxiety can be brought on by a lot of things....esp things we enjoy like writing. We put deadlines, goals....pressure on ourselves and that can bring anxiety on. Just take a few deep breaths and get up and walk away more. What I read in your blog is that you don't walk away enough. You get going on the writing and you forget to get up and move....do that more. Thank you for the comment on the Yiddish word that I did have to look up! haha My home is okay left on its own. People all around there, and the main reason I have here is to animal set, I bring my two with me. They are used to coming here. Lily loves it cause there is a lot of room to run and play, and of course the mice are so much fun to play with! Plus, I drop by my place through the week. Headed that way later today. I just get bored here unless I bring paints and craft stuff....and sometimes that is such a hassle. Raining here yesterday and today. I was down all day yesterday with a major headache and pain. Today is better. Thanks for always checking.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the kind advice. I hope you have more good days than bad. ~hugs~ Be well.
DeleteI think that's awesome. Channeling emotions of all sorts into positive endeavors is better than say having a screaming fit, shooting people, or eating everything in the fridge.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the kind words. ~hugs~ Be well, my dear.
DeleteI've never been a writer, but I'm guessing it can be very stressful. I know it's stressful out on the roads.
ReplyDeleteHave a fabulous day. ♥
The sad thing about suffering this stupid anxiety is that I don't endure any real stress these days. My writing is for personal pleasure. ~grin~ But thank you for the kind words and be safe!
DeleteThat logic makes sense to me. I wish my mind were that creative.
ReplyDeleteAre you kidding me? ~hugs~ You're an amazing blogger and crafter, just to name two creative skills that come to mind.
DeleteHmm...that’s an interesting hypothesis. For me, sometimes if I get lost in a story for so long, the outside world disappears. And then every time I try to go do something else, I have resistance. Because at this point I don’t want to do anything except for writing. Cameron talks about that, too. Says it’s quite normal. And she also talks about the landing. So maybe you need to take a little more time to land after you write and before you even decide what to do next?
ReplyDeleteOoh, thank you. It's tough because I want to spend every free moment writing, then three o'clock or so rolls around and SO starts getting greedy for my time. Heh... Be well, my dear!
DeleteAs long as you can attribute it to something, all's good. Unexplained anxiety is not a pleasant feeling.
ReplyDeleteSo true! Thanks for the encouraging word.
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